Happiness is a choice!

So many thoughts were going through this bald head of mine…

So many thoughts have gone through this bald head of mine that I haven’t been able to write. I was visiting with the nurse to my Idaho Doctor that found the cancer in my body. She told me that when they saw the CAT scan they thought I only had a week left to live. I remember all the  doctors I went to the first week,  gave me the feeling that I was going to die. But I truly felt that it was my choice to live or die and because I made that choice to live, it would all work out. One close friend asked if I yelled at the Doctor when he recommended me to go to a radiation oncologist and that I was not done with this process. Actually I kinda did, he said.” We talked about that you may need to have radiation,” I said,” No you didn’t! ” In my mind I was done and was cancer free.  But that may not be so. There is a spot in my stomach that lit up with the PET scan. It may be a spot of lymphoma and it may be scare tissue. It took me a while

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I can’t imagine being anything but cancer free

The waiting is happening. I can’t imagine that I will need to have more chemo or anything. To me, I am cancer free and able to just continue on with my life, my health, my future. Sometimes I forget I am sick because I feel so good and then I will get nausea, or tired or dried mouth and I think what is wrong with me? Oh ya, I am sick. But I can NOT even imagine that I am nothing but completely cancer free. My hair is coming in white, yup, just like when I was a baby.               I have thought about getting a wig because it just isn’t coming in fast enough. But then I realize how much I take my hat off and rub my head. I truly think it would drive me crazy! There are so many things that tell me that I am cancer free. I had a musty smell on my skin and all of a sudden it was gone after the last chemo. My head used to feel like whiskers and bald spots and all of a sudden it was all gone and soft baby hair

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PTSD, who doesn’t have it?

What is Post-traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD)? (This is Google’s description of PTSD) “When in danger, it’s natural to feel afraid. This fear triggers many split-second changes in the body to prepare to defend against the danger or to avoid it. This “fight-or-flight” response is a healthy reaction meant to protect a person from harm. But in post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD), this reaction is changed or damaged. People who have PTSD may feel stressed or frightened even when they’re no longer in danger. PTSD develops after a terrifying ordeal that involved physical harm or the threat of physical harm. The person who develops PTSD may have been the one who was harmed, the harm may have happened to a loved one, or the person may have witnessed a harmful event that happened to loved ones or strangers. PTSD was first brought to public attention in relation to war veterans, but it can result from a variety of traumatic incidents, such as mugging, rape, torture, being kidnapped or held captive, child abuse, car accidents, train wrecks, plane crashes, bombings, or natural disasters such as floods or earthquakes.” We had an incident of fighting last night and things go a little out of

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Sweet Christmas Cherub’s 1st recital

This little cherub has been wanting to be in a recital for a couple of years. Her mom told her she could play in a recital as soon as she would practice with her. Well when she turned four years old,  this little one started practicing. She was so excited to be in the recital. Here is her darling performance and when she gets embarrassed she smiles and giggles. It is just darling. What a happy little Cherub!   She is following in the footsteps of her uncles, her mom and her siblings.   

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