The waiting is happening. I can’t imagine that I will need to have more chemo or anything. To me, I am cancer free and able to just continue on with my life, my health, my future. Sometimes I forget I am sick because I feel so good and then I will get nausea, or tired or dried mouth and I think what is wrong with me? Oh ya, I am sick.
But I can NOT even imagine that I am nothing but completely cancer free. My hair is coming in white, yup, just like when I was a baby.
I have thought about getting a wig because it just isn’t coming in fast enough. But then I realize how much I take my hat off and rub my head. I truly think it would drive me crazy!
There are so many things that tell me that I am cancer free.
- I had a musty smell on my skin and all of a sudden it was gone after the last chemo.
- My head used to feel like whiskers and bald spots and all of a sudden it was all gone and soft baby hair started coming in.
- Sunday, I was able to sing the hymns in church and it has been months since I have been able to because of dry mouth and throat tightening, and I felt like I couldn’t get air.
- I forget I am bald.
- I care if the house isn’t clean.
Wednesday is full of tests. Thursday we meet with the doctor. We will see if what my gut and heart says is right. But whatever comes my way I will love it and live it.
Stay strong, I love your style and attitude is 90% of the battle! Waiting is hard. I have a good feeling and keep you in my prayers.
Thank you Jolyn, we will be going to Utah for several years many times and one of these times it will work out that I can see your beautiful new house! I am looking forward to hearing your laugh and seeing your smile.
Carol you are in my prayers. Your positive attitude is so inspiring and I know you will find you are cancer free!
I have learned through this process that I am not in charge, God is, and he knows best. So I will be happy with whatever comes my way. It is a beautiful life. I am so happy to be able to keep in touch with good friends like you, even though we are miles apart.