Happiness is a choice!

#5 RCHOP treatment

This was probably the smoothest treatment so far. Everything seemed to go like clock work. I have had a harder time recovering and that is to be expected. It is so nice to have support from friends and family in Utah when we go to the Huntsman’s Cancer Center.    Johanna, Jim’s daughter came and visited. Also a good friend from high school Debbie Woodbury Merrill. I am so blessed to be showered with gifts and food. Debbie brought a gift from “Forget Me Not”  it is a bag full of helpful things! Many things I didn’t even know I wanted and now I love it! This was a very thoughtful gift from people who know what chemo patients need.   I had my favorite taxi driver, who was fearless and loyal. I wore my favorite cowboy boots to give me a extra kick, and a my brave girl necklace.  As of today we have 16 more days until the I get to hit the gong and heal up and move on!    

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Do you believe in yourself?

  When  I was about 9 or 10 years old, I became obsessed with the olympics. I wondered to myself, “Which olympic event I should compete in?” I was so good at everything.  This makes me smile, that I had so much confidence. One problem that I believe many people have, is that they don’t believe in themselves. How does this happen? How did I lose confidence in myself when I had so much confidence as a child? There was a classroom setting with christian students. The question was asked “Who desires to go live with Heavenly Father again?” Every hand went up and then the next question was asked,”Who has the confidence you’ll succeed?” Very sadly and surprisingly, most hands went down. The answer is that we can’t do it alone. We need the Savior and his atonement. As I visit with others about their cancer experience, I find that the common ground is depression and frustration. We can not do it alone. Sometimes I open the pantry and there is food in it, but it is too much work, so I just walk away. I remember visiting my grandmother and I asked her what she was wanting to

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Remembering Tex’s on his 21st Birthday

In May of 2008 Jim and I blended this family of 14 children. It hasn’t been all roses, but it has been for the good of all. Whether any of the children want to admit it or not, the parents have been able to heal and learned to love unconditionally. Jim and I have found love we didn’t know existed and we are married for time and all eternity. We both know that Happily ever after is after this life. But this is about Tex. The day a little of my heart broke off was the day he sat me down on our front steps and told me he was moving in with his dad. How can anyone take care of a son better than a mother. He was 17 and all grown up. But a peace of my heart tore off and went down the road with that sweet boy and all his belongings in his dads horse trailer. I  never understood or completely healed from this incident, he was taken from this earth just after his 18th birthday, and I was not allowed to talk care of my baby and he died with his dad. Many people have broken my

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Cowboy life and little boys

The whole family is living the ranch life dream. Everyone needs to help and the 7 year old is a big part of running  the family ranch. His dad, is on another horse with a neighbor boy on a pony. Then here comes the mule with mom and her big helper. This warms my heart to see my children raising their children in such a healthy good for -the- soul lifestyle.      What great helpers. And when the work was done, grandma got to ride on the mule. Look who is driving!    

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Lucky # 21

 Today is RCHOP treatment #5. I have 21 days until #6 and I will be done. I may not feel well after that but I am counting on lucky number 21 to be the end and start a new beginning. While I am getting poked, and poison put in my body, I will think happy thoughts. I will hold hand with my favorite boyfriend.               Wear my favorite cowboy boots. Enjoy the Fall air, my wonderful companion who is driving me back and forth from Sugar City Idaho to  Salt Lake City. We are leaving at 3:30 am and will be driving back home on the same day. I pray for my man that he can be strong for the both of us. Hope he can catch a nap when I do, but not when he is driving.    

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