The Gift of “Drive”

I am great at so many things, “What should I go to the Olympics in?” 

Yes!  I thought that when  I was a little girl. Oh, how I wish everyone to have that kind of confidence. But then life happens.

Usually, I have enough “drive” myself. But occasionally I need a push. I get great ideas and go big, then I get tired or just plain bored with the idea. Can you relate? Is this normal? I would like to think that I am not the only one out there with these obstacles.

I have felt alone in my big ideas at times. Now I have a gift. A gift to be me and do what I want. It is a big responsibility. I was given the gift of a second chance at life. What will I do with this gift?

I had a big idea to sell online. This isn’t the first time. The problem is that measurements, weights, prices, revenue, account balance description, profit margins all matter! What? you mean that I need to keep track of all of this? Money doesn’t just build up in my account without watching your profit margins. An ounce matters when you ship something. Details, details, are such a pain and they matter. When I see April 10th on a paper and it goes from April 10 to April 01, I better know the difference. I have to take my time and get it right.

I won’t go to the Olympics as a competitor. It sure was great thinking I was capable. I most likely will always have the challenge of getting my numbers, letters,  and directions all straight.  But one thing I will always have is “Drive”. I want to be the best that I can. Now I have my wings. I have an office that is my safe haven and my own. I have time to learn and develop. I have a second chance.

Recently I was given a gift of 200 free listings on eBay. I pushed the button and said, “I can do this!” I had 3 days to accomplish this goal. One of those days was Sunday. I really try not to work on Sunday. I need this day to recuperate,  fill my own reserve, serve my God and family. It is my Sabbath day. That took one day off of the 3 days. After Saturday, I needed the break really bad. My office wasn’t contained. Things I was selling were through the house and overtaking every room. I knew I could do it all on Monday. Well, Monday night came and I had only posted 150 items and it was 11 pm. I told my husband I was just too tired and I was going to bed. He looked at me and said, “What? this is a big deal! You can’t give up now!” I was so surprised, he wasn’t saving me. He took my shoulders and gently turned me around and sent me to my office. ” You can do this, you can sleep later,” he said, and I did. I actually got an extra hour because of the time zone. I worked until 12:59 am. When I woke up in the morning I had sold the last thing that I posted. I didn’t make the 200 posts. But I was close.

Lesson learned:

• I have “drive” for myself, but sometimes it is okay to be pushed. I can do more than I think I can.
• I don’t need to use the “cancer card” anymore, I am just like everyone else.

Who drives you? What drives you?