I got out of be early and had a great morning routine. It was near perfect with exercise, writing, reading, thinking, and a perfect protein drink with whole wheat toast. I was on the road to perfection…
What is for lunch? Oh, the only vegetable I had was tomatoes. So I eat 2 tomatoes and we head to do errands. We stop for our favorite diet soda and I am feeling good. After several stops and several hours, I am very hungry. We hit Sam’s Club, with samples of food and big bags of chips. The apple sticks, “lower calorie than chips” look so very taste. I will just have one serving I rationalize. Into the cart they go, with salads, spinach and grapes.
It is 4 o’clock and I have had to total of protein drink, toast, and tomatoes…I lost it! The apple sticks that tasted like a really yummy apple cookies, were devoured, and to wash them down out came the grapes and they weren’t even washed. By the time our 45 minute drive home, I was satisfied, but the boys were and they had made home made chocolate chip cookies. I needed them and out came the milk.
I was feeling satisfied, guilty, and happy all at the same time. Oh ya, I have missed my dietician’s appointment for the last 2 months. I was holding my weight pretty good, but this morning I was up 5 pounds. I tell myself that I won’t eat for the rest of the evening.
I fixed us a smoothie of extra dose of spinach and fiber before the movie. That would hold me over, NOT!
You got it, I didn’t think I could eat another thing until… I smelled the popcorn! Oh, how can I have the movie experience without popcorn? I couldn’t even wait to start eating it before we sat down.
We are headed home and…
Our friends called and wanted us to come see their new movie room. We sat on the couch and it was much more comfy than the movie theater, we watched another whole movie.
What we got home about midnight and I still needed to take my vitamins, what to eat with them? Nothing better than a chocolate chip cookie and a glass of milk.
As I finally crawled into bed and rolled to my stomach I was very uncomfortable. I could only hope that in the morning my stomach would feel better.
I thought I was in Food Paradise with salty sweet, salty sweet, but my gut says otherwise. This is what got me 50lbs over weight.
Back to basics, old habits die hard.
This is what I will change.
- Make a food plan for the day. Have it ready and easy. This is crucial, because when I am hungry and am looking for something to eat, it not the time to rationalize.
- Remember my,”Why”
My why is because I want to feel good. I want to climb”R” mountain with ease. Next summer I want to climb Table Rock. I don’t want to cary this extra weigh around with me. It is weighing me down and holding me down.
What is your why?
What keeps you on track?
How do you forgive yourself and start over?
Look over the eating plan again.
Plan
Remember my why
and
Live