Ether 12:27
And if men come unto me I will show unto them their weakness. I give unto men weakness that they may be humble: and grace is sufficient for all men that humble themselves before me: for if they humble themselves before me and have faith in me, then will I make weak things become strong unto them.
I am weak, and I am happy How can this be so?
I realized that whatever the circumstance, I could choose happiness. This has definitely bit me in the butt many times. Sometimes out of no where, I don’t want to exist in this world any longer, it is just to hard.
I feel unloved, unappreciated and why? I have the love of my life beside me, but life is hard for him also, and maybe, I make it harder for him by being by his side.
I have a big family but with this big family comes many heartaches and horrible thoughts, I fight them off.
Mothers Day
Missing my mom, grandmother and my son.
Feeling betrayed and unloved.
It will not let it get to the best of me, I walk.
I came across a field that was recently plowed.
Thick rich dirt, My body longed to lie in it and start to build a snow angel and bury myself deep inside the earth, I would swim to my son, mom and grandmothers.
But then I felt like a crazy girl, what the heck?
They are not there, not in the earth, they have their arms around me
holding me up
pushing me forward,
I need to have faith and weak things will become strong.