I am facing hidden pains that have been buried many years. Your lessons, your experiences, and your support and love strengthens me through Christ. This morning I sent off my fiery lanter. On it was the pain that I have carried way too long. I hand it over to Jesus Christ and will give of myself every time I remember the pain. I know that through the Atonement of Jesus Christ I can be healed.Thank you for giving me your strength, and love to carry on. Your are wonderful daughters of Christ. There is a hole in my heart that festersThe way my son died was wretchedMy motherhood was challenged. Betrayal came from all cornersDevistation of my sons life was not enough for the darknessThe parade of betrayalDeath for myself was knocking at my doorI was ill. I wanted to be with my son.And my momBut I was hereOn earth expected to adult. Today I opened that woundI faced itNow I give it go JesusI will be his hands. Every time that wound festersI will serveI will stand tallI will stand for Christ. The darkness cannot winIt will not winMy trust is in ChristHis pain was for me. His suffering was for youYou can give it to HimYou can change