I felt so numb. My legs felt like wood. I am Christmas Carol. That is what my mom called me! But she is an angel in heaven and I think she is pretty busy. ( my mom painted these figuriness and notice the book says Christmas Carols, Yes that is about me:)
I would take pictures of off the kids in front of the Christmas tree. Yes, Tex is an angel in heaven and he wasn’t feeling the Christmas spirit that during this picture, maybe because the lump of coal in his stocking was mentioned 100 times a day!
Then I remember the Christmas I was exhausted and drank hot cocoa and watched movies as my children visited their father and we started a “new normal” Divorced parents after 25 years of marriage. Ya, that was a memorable Christmas.
Just 2 years ago I was pretty sure it was my last Christmas because of a life-changing cancer experience. 
But now I am here to face these memories, and my heart, legs and mind just wasn’t sure what to do. This is the 1st time in a very long time that I was healthy, no antibiotics for the last 3 months. I feel pretty good health-wise, but my heart is searching for what is next. There is much to e thankful for.
A husband who adores me!
Many women believe their life would be perfect if they had a Jim in their life.
Grandchildren galore!
Children in love
in college
working
Their lives are changing and so is mine.
I am dealing with this new life
So why can’t we just have a tiny tree and skim through Christmas?
The 16-year-old shocks me back to reality
“I am still here! ”
opps, the boy cares! and I gave away the tree.
I need something real, I tell my “Sexy beast husband”
Local Walmart didn’t have”real”
Then I get a message from a long time friend and wrestling coach to Tex,( my personal angel )He says,”My wife won’t let me put this real tree in the house.”
Arrangements are made,
Real tree is in the van, with seats down
New “real” glass bulbs and lights
“Real” water, star and smell of Christmas
My angels in heaven and earth arranged this
They put me back into ” real life”
Christmas is real magic,
Because angels in heaven and earth work together.
Christmas is a miracle, a blessing, a time to reflect. Your a miracle. I’m so glad God kept you in my life. A woman who walks in faith. I love you, Carol. You are a blessing
Beautiful story Carol..,I love that your mom called you Christmas Carol, what a sweet memory to carry.
Im so glad you are here this Christmas! I am so sorry about your boy. I can’t think of anything more heartbresking. I’m so glad you have a wonderful love in your life now…what a sweet surprise to have a real tree delivered! I hope your 16 year old was a little excited to see that!
I have 2 little ones in Heaven too and I like to think my Mom and Dad are filled with joy to have one each. I hang an angel ornament on the tree for them every year.
Hugs from me ((((Carol)))) Love y’a!
My Christmas Day this year…
Christmas Day my dear little Yorkie was badly injured by one of my other dogs. Both sides of her tiny jaw are broken. I couldn’t believe my eyes, everything happened so fast and suddenly there was blood everywhere. I had no one to call…Her bottom mouth dangled down and she kept trying to lick because something was wrong, and there was a tooth on the floor… my poor little dog, she went to hide under my bed. I coaxed her out and tried to figure out what to do…I didn’t remember to call a vet right away…fir a few mins I didn’t know what to do for her. Then I called and he said he was leaving now! The jaw hinges are intact and her jaw is wired together now. I am so grateful for this Christmas present to me…thankful for our vet who spent so many years studying to do what he does and was able to come out Christmas Day to save my little dog. It was a good Christmas after all.
Yes, you will have you little pup for longer now because of the vets’ hard work. Amazing what they can fix! That is such a traumatic story! You are a strong lady. It is so nice to rub shoulders with you.
Carol, you are real. You have a spark that always makes me smile. It makes me happy to think that you are my friend.
Thanks for taking the time, and having the courage to share your tender feelings. You have lifted us all at this special time when we celebrate our Savior’s birth. YOU are a special lady. I love you.
Carol, you are real. You have a spark that always makes me smile. It makes me happy to think that you are my friend.
Thanks for taking the time, and having the courage to share your tender feelings. You have lifted us all at this special time when we celebrate our Savior’s birth. YOU are a special lady. I love you.
Carol, you are real. You have a spark that always makes me smile. It makes me happy to think that you are my friend. Thanks for taking the time, and having the courage to share your tender feelings. You have lifted us all at this special time when we celebrate our Saviour’s birth. YOU are a special lady. I love you. ..
Mary Lou thank you! What a good friend you are to me. I cherish our visiting times.
You are very real❤️
You know me better than most people, thank you.
I’m soo glad your still here and I’ve been able to have you in my life. You are such an inspiration and a joy to be around. You make me smile and give new meaning to faith. I Love You sweet lady.
Thank you Cathryn, so glad you are part of my life! What a good friend you are.