No regrets

I have always been a woman who prays.  I have had many answers to prayers. I believe in meditation, prayer and even looking at nature and asking questions. I have so many questions about my life. What I should be doing? Am I doing enough? What are the  activities I should be doing today?

I am not sure why I am always questioning myself.  When I was a young mom I felt like I needed to earn more money. I felt like there was more month than money, month after month. Whenever I pleaded with God about my money trials, I always had the answer to practice music with my children. Through much creativity I was always able to pay for lessons. I knew without a shadow of a doubt that music was what my children needed. Through these life experience I ended up being a music teacher myself.

One time our family was blessed with and all expense paid trip to Jackson Hole Wyoming, performing for 3 days and 2 nights with  and a little extra money to boot! My son Tex was 3 years old and learned to write his name by signing his name over and over on our posters. It was the last time I made matching outfits for the entire family. I was reminded of this trip  this last week end while driving home after my son Jud took us on a elk wagon ride. He is he guide. He did such a fine job. He knows the facts, the right jokes and is just a all around showman.

As we drove out of Jackson Hole Wyoming, I knew that I raised my children the best way that I could, that all the sacrifice of lessons, all the pleading to God for help to make it to the end of the month was enough. They are all grown and I did enough. I did my best. My children had valuable lessons in our home that they are still using in their own careers.

Today as I prepare for my day, I am still pleading with the Lord, that I will do what he has planned for me. That I can contribute as a step mom the way I should. I live more comfortably than I have ever have but, I still have the same questions, What should I be doing? Am I doing enough? What are the most important activities I should be doing today?  I want to be who God put me on this earth to be. I want to look back on my life and say.

I did my best. I was guided. No regrets.