March 31, 2016: The alarm clock goes off at 7:15 am. The accountability conference call is in 15 min. I am no longer using the cancer card as an excuse to sleep in. I need to find a positive affirmation. I open my book, “I can do it” 
I read through a few affirmations, this one is what I need today. “I let go of all negativity that rests in my body and mind”
I was visiting with a friend through private messaging, who went through radiation the same time as I did. She told me that if she called me right then, that all she would do is cry. She told me that she is struggling a little with depression and anxiety and that radiation changed her personality.
That is exactly how I feel! The last 2 nights I slept at least 9 hours and when I woke up I felt great. But within an hour of getting up, I want to just sit and stare. I still have a hard time eating a meal until about noon. Two days in a row this week I was done with the day at 5 pm. I don’t always need sleep, I just run out of energy and ambition.
As soon and I was done with chemo I started taking my Total Health Oligo vitamins. 
Within 3 days I felt a surge of energy.
About 3 weeks after chemo I decided I really needed to get some things done before Christmas. I would wake up in the morning and within a few minutes I would just want to cry. I couldn’t explain why. I started taking 
Energy Kick within 5 minutes upon waking. I would jump back in bed and wait. Within 15 minutes I started feeling a happier disposition.
Then I would get up and start my day with a yummy Access Bar or Shake.
I started doing yoga within weeks for the first 2 weeks after chemo and during radiation. Now it has been 2 months since I had radiation.
I have graduated to my Bowflex Max trainer and yoga. I still keep an eye on my heart rate because it really jumps up. I should keep my heart rate at 169 beats per minute. It will quickly get up to over 200 in a matter of seconds. So I check it frequently.
This schedule has saved me from so much heartache. I always get dressed and put makeup on after exercise. This is how I have started my day since 3 weeks after chemo. If my day ends at 5 pm, then so be it. I made it that long! Even if I am sick with a cough, UTI, sinus infection, got up 8 times in the night because of my bladder pounding, or a cold, I keep this routine 6 days a week.
I have been off antibiotics for over a week. I am doing my best to stay healthy. I feel this routine is doing my body good. I am pretty much staying on the bladder friendly foods. I have added to this MyFitnessPal app (click here to see that). So I can count my calories and my activity.
I am starting physical therapy for my back, bladder and my finger on Monday. I have high hopes for much success!
I have been so frustrated with my weight for the last 20 years! I was motivated to not gain weight after chemo especially when my doctor told me that most people really put the weight on after chemo. I did talk to one girl that gained 60 lbs after chemo! I have been able to maintain.
In the back of my mind I think of my friend Tamara. She has overcome much and is an inspiration, click here to learn about her story of losing 100 lbs and being in a bikini competition at the age of 50.
Who knows what my life will bring in the future? I do know that I will keep up this routine because it is bringing me happiness and helping me, “I let go of all negativity that rests in my body and mind.”