Jim, “I am a sick puppy”

I haven’t felt well enough to write. I told Jim I felt like a,”sick puppy”

The first recollection of getting a shot was when my dad had hepatitis and I had to get a hepatitis shot. I was quiet and still and then I was in convulsions. Passing out was a common occurrence when it came to needles.

When I first started this process I was in a room with others getting their blood work done. My face went white and I told the nurse I was going down. The sweet man across from me said, “You will get use this.” After this week, I can honestly say, I am getting use to this. But I am not always happy about it.

This has been a humbling week. I was telling myself and everyone else that I was the star cancer patient. I didn’t even imagine that a stomach ache, and a fever was a big deal. After 2 days of not really feeling well, I started feeling really ill.  I called the doctor and I was right in the hospital and scary things were happening.

I just felt ikky and  I couldn’t stop crying. I asked for my dad to come to the hospital. He came asap and Jim and my dad gave me a priesthood blessing. As all the medicine went into my arm, I was able to rest and get comfortable. The  blood count looked good and they asked my what I wanted to do. I said, “go home and sleep” I had a great sleep that night and could feel my sweetheart holding me tight all night.

The next day was my 1st pajama, no makeup day since I started this cancer experience and staying in bed all day, watching my fever. If my fever got over 100.4  I had instructions to start an antibiotic and head to the hospital.

I have been showered with gifts, love, meals, house cleaning, prayers errands and more. This week it has been such a blessing to all who are cheering me on. I am not use to having a week body. My mind is strong, but my body is week.

My ward (church) family made me a quilt, it is even hand stitched and hand tied.  Purple reminds me of spiritual things. It reminds me of the people who love me and are behind me.

After a day of resting and thinking that I was on top of things, my fever shot up and I got a UTI.  So  off to “Ready Care” and it hit hard and fast. I was just fine getting  a shot in the butt no big deal… and wearing a mask is a new fashion that I have added.

I was very surprised and pleased to have my doctor from Utah call me at 10:30 pm on Halloween. He was worried about me and  wanted me to head to the emergency room in the morning. For more tests and such. So back we were after a good nights sleep.

With it being Sunday, I decided to dress up like I was going to church, and had to wear my cowboy boots to give me a extra kick! My body is full of antibiotics and I am sleeping. My temperature is still low grade. I am doing all I can and God willing I will have no shots this week. I need to get some health back so I can have my last treatment in  10 days.