When I think of an almost death situation, I think that it would change someone so dramatically that they would never be the same. This is true. But after chemo and radiation and facing death, right in your face several times, how does it change you? I can only talk for myself. When I first found out that I was facing cancer my first instinct was to quietly go through this experience, not tell anyone, and live my life normally. Hide out and quietly do this alone. I am pretty sure I would have died if I would have done this. Because: I was so sick I didn’t care if I died. So no one would have known when I needed help. I could look pretty normal for an hour at a time. So if I showed my face, with make-up, a wig, and a smile. People would probably not notice. If it wasn’t for people who were aware that I needed help I would have missed out on a sweet friend, laying by me on my bedside, asking questions and finding something that tasted good, and bringing it to me. My sweet husband is the best. He works far and